Thursday, June 13, 2019

First Outing Alone

Veer has turned four last month. However, it has been tough for us to leave him alone. Wherever he wants to go, he always enjoys company of papa, mamma, peesa, nani, or didi.

A few days back, Veer wanted to visit the shop outside the society and buy some candy. What he says is, "papa, Come. I will take you with me." We all laughed at this. So he replied, "I won't take you with me. I am going alone." He had one rupee with him.

Our impression was that he would come back from the stairs. However, he didn't return from there. We didn't hear his footsteps as well. So I ran to follow him. What I saw from a distance is that he was walking very normally as if he go out alone everyday. Not even once he looked back to check if anyone is following him.

After Veer stepped out of the society, our neighbour Mahesh saw him and stopped him. Mahesh looked puzzled as he had never seen Veer going anywhere alone. When Mahesh asked Veer where he was going, the latter replied "I am going to buy a candy." Mahesh looked around and found me. I hinted him to let Veer move ahead.

Soon Veer came to the main road. Now he had to cross the road. He struggled high time. Looked scared but didn't lose hope. It was when a four wheeler was approaching him, I appeared in front of him. I thought he would be exhilarated to see me. However, he was disappointed. Showed his anger to me for I had ruined his plan of a solo outing. I realised that he wanted to achieve something by winning over his fear, but I became the bottleneck.

As I held his hand to help him cross the road, he threw his hand and asked me not to touch him. I followed his instructions diligently. He crossed the road with a little more confidence and went to the shop. The shopkeeper didn't want to take the coin from him for the candy. Veer angrily said, "Take it". Amused, the shopkeeper looked at me. I gave a nod and then he took the coin with a feeling of guilt.

While coming back home, Veer repeated this one question - why did you follow me? I was telling myself, "maybe next time, I will be a little braver and bestow my confidence in you. I already know you are brave. Proud to be your father. Happy to see you grow up."

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